xmisusednoveltyx

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Mocking Bird by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Mocking Bird

If I was a mocking bird, I'd mock you in whispers and the winds of the passing breeze. With soft whispers and harsh words, I'd sit in the tree and watch you as you went along with everything that anyone has said. I'd sing until eve when you fell asleep, but only to wake you with the shrill of the coming dawn. If I was a mocking bird, would you chain me to my cage and swallow the key? Would you let it fall into your hollow wits end until I die? I'd leave you to be alone in the silence of the twilight as the stars cried out. And I'd let you leave me so that I could be with myself and my mocking ways. But if I was a mocking bird, the color of

Smeared by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

Calm Down by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Calm Down

TRUTH CAN BE FOUND IN AN ASHTRAY, SURROUNDED BY THE FLICKERING OF CIGARETTES IN A DARK DORM ROOM, SOMEWHERE IN A CITY, SUFFOCATING ON STREET LIGHTS. AND THE EMPTINESS ECHOES WITH THE SOUND OF CONFUSION AND THE CRIES OF THE DESPERATE ONES. THE ONES WHO AT THE AGE OF 35, ARE STILL LIVING IN THEIR PARENTS' BASEMENT, WITH AN ASHTRAY AND SOME CIGARETTES AS THEIR COMPANIONS. Yes, I left the caps lock on by accident, but I don't feel like going back to type all that over again. Let's let something in my life stay permanent today.

Unsown by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Unsown

Because it doesn't matter any more that every time I hear "cavern" I think of you and I in a parking lot so far from home holding on against a fucked up world of riots and emptiness and feeling unwanted. Because distance grows unsown in miles or words or action it's a habitual weed I really don't need but keep coming back to one of the many that choke pretty flowers thriving on the chaos and confusion that fertilize my head guess it'll be another slighted harvest. Because this life of mine's no storybook though I can speak for lust seems like nothing's pure these days not even the drugs we take looks like everything's cut

Ego Suicide by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Ego Suicide

I give into temptation too easily I have walked on many an eggshell I buckle under pressure I am a perfectionist Heaven forbid I be average [Whatever Average Really Means] My friends are much too good to me I overreact I have had five minute mental break downs where my whole world comes crashing down I fall asleep with something on [cd player, tv, radio, record player, lamp] I am Bi Polar I have Acute Schizophrenia I am a Bi-Sexual My sexuality has been abused for someone else's gain I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality I constantly sit in a public places and make up life stories for people who pass by me. I alw

...For A Friend... by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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...For A Friend...

And I can still remember the first time I saw her…everyone was being corralled into the auditorium. It smelt like new car but, I knew it was at least 20 years old. Maybe the new car smell was from all the new kids…nervously sitting and writhing in their seats as they awaited the welcome speech. No one really knew anyone, or at least I didn't. I could see people meeting up with old friends and new ones. All smiling, laughing, talking…I decided that because I had nothing better to do, I would take a little walk around. I ended up staying in my seat, it was too crowed to move around. More people started to file into the auditorium and then I saw

A Sunset Fall by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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A Sunset Fall

There was an afternoon [I forget how long ago:] The sun was going down over the fourth floor balcony throwing shadows across the building b e l o w purple striped with orange-gold. I told myself it was okay... That I don't need to photograph the snow covered coloured roof, because I had no film, but the light never showed i

Red Light Pledge by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Red Light Pledge

The light turned yellow and you stopped [somewhere along 6th avenue] on our way to the after party. Waiting at the red, slowly penetrating through the window I looked over to you, You silhouetted so softly against new snow, smiling. Letting go of the steering wheel you reached over and took my hand [still smiling.] It didn't take much to understand; we both knew what would follow. But right before the light turned green I saw your lips move, [beginning and form

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A New Outlook by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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A New Outlook

The useless friend sits and gazes upon the others judging and condescending her. Her shattered life means nothing to them; she is all but an inconvenience. She begins to slip in and out of reality trying to escape the incessant downward spiral to the deep depression which consumes her. The mutilation that the hatred from others has caused on her innocent body is, at times, too much to look at. Her eyes are a blank and her mind seems empty. Her pale face looks upon the world now with no expression. She has no wants or needs except th

But In Your Honour by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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But In Your Honour

The room at the end of the hall. Where all of my dreams have died. Countless hours of shedding tears and tearing skin. I will try to convince myself that I don't miss you. That your face and glorious laugh aren't burnt into the back of my head. I will empty the remaining drops from the pool at the bottom of the bottle into pretty crystal shot glasses and a line them into a splendid contour of the shadows that dance along my floor. One, two, three go down but in you're honour, I am sober of love.

The Forth Floor by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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The Forth Floor

I'm in a cell I am compelled To breathe Heavily I'm torn Lost as if I've just been born I am Wait patiently to find the answer Tied up in knots Twisted thoughts And comments too Do I look unhappy to you? Caught up in others opinions Problems arise

Love Will Be The Death Of You by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Love Will Be The Death Of You

Love will be the death of you. Knowing I love you, makes you feel good. Knowing that I'm here to hold you when you're insecure. That saves your life The way I cling to you, tells you that you're needed. Knowing that there is me until someone better comes along comforts you. Love me while you wait Fuck me until a prettier one comes along Hold me when you're cold [or at least until someone warmer walks into the picture] Move my hair from my eyes, until some brighter eyes come along.

I Lied To You, And I'm Sorry by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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I Lied To You, And I'm Sorry

I lied to you when I said that I couldn't see you. You looked all but too good for me. The photo booth where I first saw you has been taken away but the pictures have been beautifully ripened with the fleeting moments. I have placed the mantras and images that we have shared on an invariable repeat in my mind. Any notion of self content was later left bleeding on the floorboards of the room next door when you Left Me The floor was soon covered in pool

One Sided Soul Mate? by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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One Sided Soul Mate?

Lovers turn into fiends at the loss of all affection [Almost like it was the fondness that kept them from being monsters in the first place] And I could have used some admonition I was on that porch all sunrise Whimpering and sinking deeper into doubt Could it be I am mistaken? Is it possible for two people to need the same thing? Is it possible for someone to want something as much as I? It's just the lines, they get so blurry

In Your Arms, In My Blood by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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In Your Arms, In My Blood

Now that we're set in a never-ending suburbia, We'll sleep out in the garden And if it rains We'll just sink into the mud Where it is quiet And there's no clocks Or phones to wake us up Because I have learned Would like you to believe That I'm content? [I'm sure you would] And I'm sure your bored, Bored of cheering me up

On Broken Wings by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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On Broken Wings

Gouge out my eyes Pestilence Lack of love binds Propagate the strife you desire Keep me from forced self depiction Abhorate Self assured I am no more Take this away from me once more I thirsted for something that never existed Complacent I am abomination I replace absence of malice of spite Sew my mouth shut

The Final Thank You by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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The Final Thank You

All eyes on the calendar Another year I claim of total indifference All days leading up to this day are just hours upon hours of letdowns Disenchantments Awkward moments Disappointments… To here, the days pile up All with decisions to be made, [I'm sure all of them were wrong] Into this paper, I send myself And with these drinks I plan to collapse And I plan to forget this wasted year My

A Love Letter-Deal With It by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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A Love Letter-Deal With It

Why do your eyes paralyse me? What makes me feel this way? Just carry me away with Silence And Heartbeats As rapid thinking about your embrace And how it makes me feel I want to feel this way forever I want to sleep on portraits painted as perfect as you For eternity Years of blissful ignorance to anything other tha

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X.Just.X by xbleedingcherryx, literature

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X.Just.X

I'm just a girl I'm just a bitch I'm just your 'fishnet temptress' I'm just a statue I'm just simple I'm just stubborn I'm just my size (no smaller, no larger) I'm just lost I'm just a crow (left of the murder) I'm just a soul dancing in my sleep I'm just nieve I'm just a walking wonderbra I'm just trapt I'm just alone I'm just content (Thanks Dr.Cheng) I'm just a little ADHD I'm just sneeky I'm just unwell I'm just your doll you dress up I'm just the one (left behind) I'm just waiting I'm just wanting I'm just wishing I'm just a girl looking you in the eyes asking you to love her

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Ego Suicide by xmisusednoveltyx, literature

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Ego Suicide

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Deviant for 20 years
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Current Residence: Lost Somewhere In A Non-Existant State Of Mind
Favourite genre of music: The Many Subcultures of The Rock Genre (punk, metal etc)
Skin of choice: His

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A Pencil, A Peice Of Paper, Writting Book, Lack Of Sanity and A Tad Of Inspiration

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Writting, Photography, Music, Playing guitar/drums

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xmisusednoveltyx

Mar 24, 2005

hhhheeerrrrrreeesssss laura! ( to the tune of here

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Hey Everyone! How are all you doing? I hope all is well with all of you. I know i havent been on in ages...about 21 weeks. Which is a long time. But life has been absolutly nuts and i havent been able to write anything that has any substance. I hate everything i've written lately. haha. Hopefully something will inspire me soon. I really need that release. I feel almost like ive lost some part of me which is really too bad. I have recently been trying to write a song for my boyfriend and that has been failing, similar to all of my other attepted works. Oh well. If anyone has an ode to a boyfriend or girlfriend, feel free to send it my way. I

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xmisusednoveltyx

Jul 30, 2004

Devious Journal Entry Update

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For a more regular update on me, check out my reclently obtained LiveJournal http://www.livejournal.com/users/amoraldecline/ On another note, my writting still blows, but I'll keep trying for you kids. Take care eveyone.

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xmisusednoveltyx

May 29, 2004

Timing / Im Still Here

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on the thought of timing... cold toast isn't toast it's dry bread. on another note- Yes, I am still here. I have been really busy lately, school, papers, surgery etc. but I have been comming on every so often to just check up on you all. I hope everything is going well. I should be on more regularly soon enough, but untill then I miss you all terribly. My writting seems to be slowly but surely going down the drain, it doesnt seem to impact people any longer...I dont even know if it did at the begining of this all...either way, I'll try to improve, but the future looks grim...

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pusteecky

Nov 19, 2006

Where was gone?
Why so long there are no news?
We wait!

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Art of my friends: Ferres comics :: Gary Roberts comics :: Quoom 3D :: Bdsm comics :: Adult comics :: Erotic comics

DeliriumDreamer

Nov 19, 2004

We've seen do little of you lately, it'sd saddening (if thats a word). Much hopes of seeing you and some more of your amazing works soon.

McClelland

Aug 22, 2004

can you come back and write more? i miss you, dear.
back here, dammit!

winglessangelfa

Aug 17, 2004

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YOU HAVE BEEN STRUCK BY THE RANDOM MOO!!!

with a baa

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RULEZ:
1- You can MOO the person who MOO'd you! (it's encouraged!)
2- You ~MUST~ MOO at least 5 people! (if you don't, no big deal - I'll just go kill myself and put that on your conscience...)
3- MOO anyone (or anything) you want. MOO's are non-discriminatory!

Remember to MOO whoever MOO'd you! They took the time to do it to you, why not return the love?^^
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This is my absurd way of saying I miss you! Come back soon!

ichhassesie

Aug 11, 2004

MAY TWELFTH YOU STUPID WHORE UPDATE.

i love you
but i love your writing more

so update!

[jk: i love you more]

dreadz

Aug 8, 2004

Your work is awesome
I admire you and your works
You do a great job
You need some hugs from me
enjoy them and cherish them because I mean them

xbleedingcherryx

Jul 31, 2004

I love you and thank you, for everything