One Sided Soul Mate?

                                             Lovers turn into fiends at the loss of all affection

               [Almost like it was the fondness that kept them from being monsters in the first place]

And I could have used some admonition

              I was on that porch all sunrise
                      
                      Whimpering and sinking deeper into doubt

Could it be I am mistaken?

Is it possible for two people to need the same thing?

Is it possible for someone to want something as much as I?

                                                        It's just the lines, they get so blurry
                                                        Between what was once, and now required

And I don't know on which side his heart falls

But I know where mine is buried</i>

And it's so far from any inadequate longing or wanting

                                                                                                    My heart needs this to keep beating

                                                                                                   To keep wanting to carry on

                                                                                                      To keep wanting to

                                                                                   push for that next breath

                                                                          It won't go on without it

If I'm still weighed down with subtleties
Then I'll just come right out and say

                                                              That I think that I deserve him

                                                               More than anyone deserves anything

                                                  Maybe I am selfish, but there is no way to share this

                                    There’s not enough to go around, I don’t care who else gets hurt

But I’m still sick with empathy

The world is so selfish to think that it deserves him

I suppose I am too

And I’m sure that there are reasons for everything that happens
  
               And absence leads to adoration

It’s nobody’s fault
    
               But now there is no way to change this

So I just photographed and framed it

               And it’s hanging in a hallway

A hallway that we have no right to walk back down once more

              But I hope that he feels better but I’m sick of all the drama

                                                 
                                                I can’t stand to see them crying for me

                                              Can’t stand to see another tear shed because of me

                                        I don't deserve your tears so please don't cry for me

I just want this shit to end

     And I want a place to find a sense of self

          With him by my side

                A place where there are a thousand movies rented

                      A thousand half burnt candles found

                                                            For a thousand nights with him