Ego Suicide

I give into temptation too easily
I have walked on many an eggshell
I buckle under pressure
I am a perfectionist
Heaven forbid I be average [Whatever Average Really Means]
My friends are much too good to me
I overreact
I have had five minute mental break downs where my whole world comes crashing down
I fall asleep with something on [cd player, tv, radio, record player, lamp]
I am Bi Polar
I have Acute Schizophrenia
I am a Bi-Sexual
My sexuality has been abused for someone else’s gain
I believe you can't control or choose your sexuality
I constantly sit in a public places and make up life stories for people who pass by me.
I always check payphones for change.
My stomach has been poked at with a tube sucking out my soul and wishes
I make corny jokes.
I have done things to feel invincible
I burst out laughing.
I am open-sometimes too open
When I look at someone I don't just study their body like most people would, I look into them. I read their little ticks and mannerisms more than any normal person does. I am observant. I like to get to know people in my own way.
I often hate people for who they are but love them for their potential.
I burst out crying.
I have snapped at people I deeply care about
I hug mementos until I'm numb and fall asleep [boyfriend’s shirt, stuffed animal…]
I suck my thumb when I'm nervous, hearing things/seeing things or when I just need some comfort
I ramble
I often think that someone is watching me through my window
I spend too much money on things I don't need...
I dance around to loud music when no one else is home
I rummage through things repeatedly until I find something interesting.
I always play with my hair.
My curfew has been more then abused
I constantly pull at my eyelashes
I have a tendency to pick fights with people twice my size and have friends twice my size save my ass
I have thrown my towel in
I play dress-up with myself.
I have relished in the temporary solution of a joint and a bottle of Vodka with myself as the invited company
Heaven forbid I have someone to laugh with
I have moral values. I just can't think of them right now.
I have watched the crimson droplets dance along my writs
I have clipped my own wings
I wear my heart on my sleeve but it has had to endure many wash cycles after I forgot I had one.
I have sugar-coated the truth [to tell to myself]
I do not pray for the future or forgive the past
I often pull my eyelashes out, blow them off my finger and make a wish.
I over analyze EVERYTHING
I tell my boyfriend pick up lines
I have suicidal tendencies
I have done things to make me feel worth something [they just made it worse]
I am a deep thinker.
I often make up words.
My will power has been lost [again]
I talk to myself
I have a tendency to sleep to the last minute
I admit to things I really shouldn't admit
My mind and body was raped by someone who was supposed to be educating me
I am worse with trust than I am with Algebra
I believe that trust is more important than monogamy
I make odd noises
I have a propensity to trip...
I am silent [and oh so deadly]
I believe parents do the best job they know how to do
I've been undeniably jealous
I quote movies then when I'm asked which one it is from, I can never remember
I believe the struggle for financial freedom is unfair [and I also believe the only ones who disagree are millionaires]
I get easily distracted
I often pick up on faint smells and seek them out
I believe that understanding only comes with experience
Heaven forbid I have some compassion
I have found myself in moments of complete hopelessness
I collect useless things
I start singing to myself when I think no one is paying attention even though they usually are
I am the worst liar
I argue with myself [mostly out loud]
I have an inclination to kick something across the floor a few times before I pick it up because I'm sick of kicking it.
I have the attention span of a goldfish
I often watch a movie halfway through and then start watching another because I got bored
I say what I type out loud
I constantly clean my room then mess it up the next day
I am quite the optimist even though I appear just the opposite.
I go on a diet in the morning and be off it at night even though I weigh virtually nothing
I have been vain
I spend too much time in the bathroom before bed
I plan to do sit ups but never do
I have been admitted
Heaven forbid I loose my sanity
I have been clinically dead
I believe being quoted is the highest form of respect in my eyes.
I sing songs that no one knows
I believe you don't know what you've got until you say goodbye
My bark isn’t nearly as bad as my bite
I daydream…
I have let myself be walked upon and I have walked upon others
I glance about suspiciously whilst smoking
I have cried myself to sleep on numerous occasions
I kiss my dog on the bridge of her nose, though she really despises me for it and feels violated
afterwards...I do it none the less
I pick my lip until it bleeds, then do it some more
I want to wear dresses all the time, even though I never do
I often play a video game for a whole day and then never play it again
I believe in the old wives tale that said when all the numbers on the clock are the same, make a wish and at that time the next day, it will come true. I'm making my wish now…[11:11}
I will clean my desk because I can’t think when writing essays and my desk is cluttered. I then clean my whole room because I started to clean my desk
I have been humble
I have been self absorbed
I chew on my lips whenever I drink because they usually go numb after about a cup of straight vodka
I have been loud and pretentious
If you are shy then we probably won’t get along.
Heaven forbid I be ignored
I have been a horrible listener
I have an inclination to say huh? even if I did hear what they said
I always run out of writing space on birthday cards…I love re-informing about all of our memories
During important lectures, I often zone out and think about stupid things like the best way to wash socks  
One of my biggest fears is letting go
I speak to electronics whenever they don’t want to work
I have been defeated by others [and by myself]
I change my underwear constantly [like more than once in a day just because I love panties]
I love listening to people's problems.
I suck at everything I do but still manage to keep my competitive attitude
I have cried at the idea of love
I often stay up all night just to watch the sunrise and then fall back asleep
I believe the grass is no more greener on the other side
I used to check myself for any sign of depression before I decided to drink…I just don’t give a fuck anymore
I have a tendency to listen to the same song over and over.
I refuse to have a shower unless someone else is home or if it’s past 7pm
I have cried when I was told not to
I have smiled when it has gone un-noticed
‘Friends’ have refused to speak with me because of my sexuality
Heaven forbid I be loved
I often pop pills if I have them [aspirin] as some sort of a prevention method
I love to be in the nude
I punch people who annoy me but never enough to hurt them…really…
I believe the sun should never set upon an argument
I have lost my way more then once
I have a compulsion to be creative when I should be doing something else instead
I sit on my legs until they go numb and end up crawling to the door
I have done things completely intentionally when I said it was a mistake
I have been arrested
I have been hospitalized [many a time]
I believe that junk food tastes so good because it's bad for you
I forget to eat when I’m depressed
I have questioned people’s authority
I have questioned my own
I love to hear what people think about
I set my alarm in the hallway so I have to get up and turn it off, then go back to bed and sleep as my family is yelling at me because I woke everyone else in the house up.
I have a predisposition to sleep for hours on end because I see no reason to be awake (15 hours straight, for example) and then I get angry that I sleep so long
I have lied [not to mention cheated]
I ride the public transportation randomly, just to look at the city.
I have taken candy from a baby
I never listen to what the weather channel says
I am such a child
I am so mature
I am the biggest hypocrite
I still believe there is a man living under my basement stairs.
I believe we place our happiness in other people's hands
I have been mishandled and I am close to the edge
I listen to the same song repeatedly.
I have abused my so-called power
I love to kiss. It's my one major addiction that I have.
I read anything.
I often make up statistics to support my argument. [I argue about anything]
I bite my lip before I have an orgasm
I have been utterly threatened
I remember random useless facts.
Spell check is my best friend
I dream about flying
Drowning
Dying
Smiling
Being in a state of euphoria
[Dreams should really come true…]
Heaven forbid I have them
There are over 50 stitches on my body from an assortment different things
I deny things.
I always make up movies in my head about random people I see, with intricate storylines, sets, props etc., in which I always star
I brush my teeth, do my make-up and wash my face naked.
I put on chapstick, and then bite my lips so I have to put more on.
I smell things before I buy them.
I have packed a running away suitcase just in case…[it’s still packed]
I count things for no apparent reason
I have a tendency to procrastinate untill the last minute just because I can
I twirl my hair.
I love to masturbate
I hum when I want something
I have done things to feel beautiful
I believe that beauty magazines promote low esteem
I will believe I'm loved when I'm completely love myself
I have brought tears to my mother’s eyes
I re-arrange furniture, but usually end up putting it back where it was in the first place
Heaven forbid I be alone
I often feel lonely and then convince myself I don’t need a boy/girlfriend when the truth is I really do
I sit on the phone with someone on the other end of the line [usually my boyfriend] and we don’t say a word for hours [I then fall asleep to the sound of his breathing]
I believe you can't appreciate real love until you've experienced real heartbreak
I have put up with an abusive relationship in the past
I wondered why such a pretty word as love, could hurt so much
I don't usually count on anyone because that trust has been molested too many times
I have let my heart be trampled upon and I am sure I have trampled others
I have conformed to make people happy
I have broken trends
I still crawl into my sister’s bed when I have a nightmare
I haven’t recieved a good nights rest in ages
I have cried over the loss of an imaginary friend
I have been extraordinarily horny
I often sound smarter than I am.
I usually talk really fast, the subject that I talk about changes faster than it was started
I love to hear the little things about people
I've been out of reach and separatist
I often don’t notice when someone is flirting with me until someone else points it out
I believe in Karma
I always have to sit on the left side of the bus and ring the bell twice
Once you have me for a little while, you will have me forever
I like to question the reason why I'm alive, but never question the reason why I want to die
If you talk to me first I will love you forever.
I thought that a few swift kisses of a razor would solve everything
I believe life isn't perfect so why would you want it to be